They love to tell you stay between the lines.

No Such Thing by John Mayer

Senior year has officially kicked off and I am ended day two. These past couple days have been super hectic and I have somehow managed to get my room all set up with decorations before the middle of the first week. I think this is a new level of productivity. So you may ask, what has been going. Not much really except for the fact that I had auditions for the Fall production of Tartuffe by Moliere. I was super pumped for my monologue because it was from a character that I love and I got to be sassy. I get there and to my surprise there aren't many people there. I was shocked because the auditions for Robin Hood were huge, but it was Robin Hood after all. Not many people know or care about Moliere even though he is seriously one of the best playwrights for French drama. He is also extremely hilarious. Anyway...

The audition was great and I landed a callback. Again I was super pumped and preparing the whole day for how I could best play these three different roles that I had been called back for. Sadly Tuesdays are my busiest days where I literally don't stop until 5:30. AH. So after running from my Ballet class (which about killed me), I hurriedly got myself ready for the callbacks which were so crucial for my success during this important senior year of mine. When the director called us all in and we were warmed-up he told us that we could watch each other and learn the techniques and mistakes from our fellow classmates. This just made everyone even more excited considering there were only 14 people there in total. In short, I laughed my ass off and ROCKED my audition.

So about an hour ago the cast list was emailed to us, which by the way is a great method. It means that I don't have to leave the comfort and security of my bed. It also saves me the amazing or terrible walk back to my dorm after looking at the list with thousands of people asking you how your did. Do you know how nerve racking that is? Do you know how terrible it is to tell people that you got a small part, but that it's ok because you know you are going to have a purpose anyway? This time though it doesn't matter because I got the role. My first larger role since freshman year, so I am pretty stoked. Not only I am excited to break in the old acting boots, but the cast is amazing. We already have a ton of inside jokes from auditions and we all work really well with each other. Thats what you get with a cast of 11.

Before I go though I would like to say that whoever said that we should be normal and follow the guidelines set for us in life, should be slapped with a herring. Be yourself and whatever you do, do it with all of your heart and who knows, you get the role in life.

Diva Off.

Call on me

 Call on Me
By Eric Prydz

Four years.
For four years we have been together through thick and thin. In 5 short days we will start out senior year of college and we will experiencing the last homecoming, the last toga parties, the last house parties, the last times at the pub, and the last Spring Formal. Everything this year will be full of lasts as well as a ton of beginnings. New friends, new challenges, and new memories. We have all been looking forward to this last year together and we all wonder what this jam packed year has in store for us. We will cry, we will laugh, and we will hug each other when times are getting tough. This are the times that we will always remember. So to all my gals out there who I love will all of my heart, this little poem I found is for all of who, who keep me going and will laugh with me when I want to tear my hair out.

Friends 'Til The End

by Becky Williams

 

Friends 'til the end,
We will always be,
Nothing can ever come between you and me.

Friends 'til the end,
Even when nothing will bend,
Our friendship we will always mend.

Friends 'til the end,
There's nothing we can't overcome,
I know you'll be there when I need someone.

Friends 'til the end,
We will never part,
As long as we have each other in our hearts.

Friends 'til the end,
Through sun and snow,
While others still come and go.

Friends 'til the end,
All throughout time,
I'm proud to say you're a friend of mine.

Friends 'til the end,
Through laughter and tears,
With a friend you can overcome any fears.

Friend 'til the end,
We share all our dreams,
We will make it by any means.

Friends 'til the end,
Through highs and lows,
When we're together anything goes.

Friends 'til the end,
No matter what people say,
We will always go our own way.

We may take other paths,
And go separate ways,
But we'll always meet at the bend,
Because we're friends 'til the end.

Hey, I know it is cheesy, but I am Diva remember and we love being over the top and cheesy, so deal with it. So for now remember, Call on me.

Don't call my name...

Song of the post:
Alejandro by Lady Gaga

Boys. That is tonight's topic. I know what you are thinking, now Diva, now? You just started your blog, shouldn't you tell your intense life story first. Well yes, maybe I should. But right now that is just what is on my mind. So where to begin.

First off let me start by saying that the statement, "can't live with them or without them is completely true." Let's think about this. What we strive for is finding true love because it has been grounded into us since we were old enough to see a Disney Princess movie. We are supposed to want to fall in love with a prince, but I would like to state that if we are supposed to fall in love, why is it so freaking hard! Why are they so difficult and impossible to read? Why must us girls look into every word, every gesture, every flip of their gelled hair? Because. Hence the fact that although they annoy the heck out of us and we pull our hair out trying to figure them out. We crave to have their attention and love at the end of the day. For some this process isn't so terrible, some are very good at using these aspects to their advantages. Me, not so much. Neither is my friend....Camille, which is what we will call her. It is totally ok though because we are both smart, beautiful, independent women who have good heads on our shoulders. You would think that girls like us would have figured out the system and have come out on top. Right? I suppose that thats just how life is. We are meant to figure out what we don't understand and we always want what we can't have. I mean without this notion we wouldn't have scientists or anything like that. People who ask why and how.

My main want, nay need, is that why can't boys come out and say what they are feeling instead of hiding it in cryptic words, that nobody can understand. Even someone as smart as my mom who has been married for 25 years. Geez. That is all I ask. Too often people try to beat around the bush with their feelings and I believe that life would be so much easier if people said, "Hey this is how I feel about it and I am not trying to mean I just think you should know" or "Hey, You're cute and we are friends, let's date". Sadly I know that life is not that easy, but a little bit more bluntness would not kill anybody.

So that being said there has been another thing that has been on my mind for the past month. Marriage. Big topic when you are a senior in college and the rings start coming out. In the past month I have been in two weddings. One for my best friend who I went to school with and my cousin who I grew up with. Both of these girls are my age. 21. I had the opportunity to be in the wedding party for both weddings and that is where the real conversations start. If you just go to a wedding its not a big deal because you watch the happy couple exchange vows and then have fun for only about 8 hours usually. If you are in wedding party, you are surrounded by it for months and intensely for three or four days. So I had that twice within a week and a half of each other. As a bridesmaid you talk about how beautiful the bride is, the look of the church, the ceremony, and the groomsmen, who also tend to be single. Everyone there is thinking about the wedding they are in, along with their own wedding and how perfect it will be. I had endless conversations with the other bridesmaids about what we would wear, where the wedding would be, and how hunky our husband would be. The first wedding wasn't that bad because I was there by myself and it was in beautiful Portland, Oregon. The second wedding was a family wedding, in Leadville, Colorado, which means it has been the topic of conversations for about a whole year, since my cousin was engaged. This wedding was way worse as far as my wedding plans go. My mom and grandma were there and they were not only talking about my cousin but also about what my wedding would be like. Do you know how it is like having your family plan things before you even have a guy in mind? Not very fun. It is adds a lot of unnecessary pressure which is fun for a while, but a little terrifying after a week or so of conversations. Of course I know what I want to happen, but when your family talks about it,  the avalanche of expectations starts and there is nothing stopping it.

So thus my conversation comes full circle about the things that I am going through these days. First, finding a boy to value all of my virtues and not want to get into my pants, and the unintentional pressure from society to get married shortly after I graduate college, which I remind you is in less than a year. It makes you want to scream like Bella after Edward left. AHHHHH! So what do I do to not go crazy? I breathe and dance around in circles. Basically I shake it off and realize that I am not like everyone else and I can do what I want in my own time because I want to know 100% about something before I take the plunge. Diva remember?

So to all those singles who are seniors in college and even the ones that are in relationships, BREATHE. Life shouldn't be so stressful and we should enjoy our last year instead of worrying about what is going to happen after graduation. We have time to find a career, get married, and have kids. This year is for us, so we have to live up. So until next time...

Don't call my name....Alejandro

Welcome. There is so much glitter on this floor.

Welcome to the first post of The Inner Workings of a Diva's Heart.
It is officially super late right now...12:01 central standard time. On the very hot and humid night in Murfreesboro. Tennessee I have decided to right a blog. So many times I wish that I had somewhere to share what I am thinking. Writing in journal, to me, is super strange and for a diva nobody can hear what you are typing....hm. Thus a blog. A place where I can tell the world what I am thinking and doing even if you dont care. Tough. DIVA.

First let me start off by saying that in two weeks I will be at school getting ready to start my final year in college. Most seniors are ecstatic at this point because they are close the ending schooling for the rest of their lives.  I am too dont get me wrong, but I also am going to miss being pampered. I mean at my school they all but change your sheets for you. Not really but at times you cant help but feeling "Am I going to survive in the real world?" I will, but other people must be thinking that. No, what I am most excited for is starting my career in acting. Is it going to be a hard road where I will hate saying "How many in your party?" Yes. But totally worth it. Everybody dreams of being a star, so do I but thats not why I do it. I do it because I want to be a role model. I know what you are thinking, "Well can't you make a difference some other way like working for the Peace Corps, teaching, or running for office?" "Well yes I could, but to me that sounds awfully boring. I love the lights, the adrenaline, the passion, and glitter that show business offers. Plus how many Peace Corps people do you see on t.v.?" Whether we like it or not televsion and film is a HUGE industry and I will that I can make a difference through that medium. I may not be a size 2 or even a size 10, but I guarantee you that I will knock your socks off. I have drive, passion, dedication, vivacity, grace, and poise. I also have a good head on my shoulders and a poop load of leadership qualities. So call me the acting superhero who will act by night and inspire young girls to be themselves and strive for their dreams by day!

So this blog will be all about me telling you how I am handling being a senior in college and juggling a job, 15 Quarter hours of class, a dance class, and a production each quarter. But don't forget friends, family, and of course the never ending head-ache of boys. In each post I will put about what has been happening in my little life along with a song that I cant get out of my head.
Right now it is: Take it off by Ke$ha

Tune in next time for more glitter on the floor and inner ramblings!
Muah!